The man (blind man in which Jesus gave sight) answered, “Here is an astonishing thing! You do not know where he comes from, and yet he opened my eyes. We know that God does not listen to sinners, but he does listen to one who worships him and obeys his will. Never since the world began has it been heard that anyone opened the eyes of a person born blind. If this man were not from God, he could do nothing.” They (Pharisees) answered him, “You were born entirely in sins, and are you trying to teach us?” And they drove him out.
Last night was the first night of the Community Group I was part of in at my church, it turns out that I lead it. It was one of those things where I knew I was one of the leaders, for the most part was driving things, but… It wasn’t until I got there and all the other leaders were looking to me for what to do and when to do it, that it really hit me that I was the leader.
Well, I am a optimistic pessimist. The pessimist part is the realization that I, like the blind man, have been born a sinner. That all I do, in my name and to glorify myself is doomed to failure from the start. But when I crucify my will for the Father’s will and yoke myself to Jesus, it is easy, and all things turn out great.
My initial thought at the end of the evening was: Well it cannot go anywhere but up. It might sound negative, which it is a bit, but… I also know the only way it is going to go up is through the Father’s will.
What really hit me when I read John 9:30-34 was how God really does use us sinners to spread the Gospel, not the Pharisees. It is truly challenging to stay that pessimist (sinner) and live out the optimism (our identity as a beloved child of God). It is so vitally important to stay humble and remember who is the true navigator!